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Nov. 4th, 2011

The last few weeks in brief:

Sea monsters

Coming soon:


A more detailed entry later perhaps.

Work venting

So we're supposed to be getting a new office, right?

Except some issues keep popping up, like where will this new office be?

My aunt was fine with the arrangements being made to have an office up at the warehouse, where all the drivers stop by once a day. It would be central to everything, we could keep track of who comes and who goes, their hours and all that stuff.

And then someone from the British Heart Foundation goes on TV and announces to the world that each bag donated to charity is worth £25.

The next day, someone gets some kind of goddamn saw and cuts right through the fucking side of the container where we store the bags donated to Age UK and steals 200 bags.

Yeah, way to go, BHF person. You just basically told everyone to go steal every charity bag they see out on the street - and some that have already been collected for the charity in question. (Another brief suck - we once got an email from some lifeboat charity about how we were all theiving scumbags for stealing people's bags because someone got the bright idea to stick the logo for the charity we deliver for on their van and steal bags. Apparently they were going to contact Rogue Traders about us. fffff Wasn't us, since we didn't have anyone in the area being stolen from at the time though.)

So... now my aunt's boss is looking at other places for the office that would be easier for her to get to.


Neither me nor Alison want to go to Team Valley every day - while doable, it would, in fact, be hell for me. :| And she also is considering somewhere in Felling, where I would consistently get lost, plus Alison would have to travel along a road she hates so... Not to mention, Team Valley and Felling are miles away from the warehouse and therefore out of the way of all our drivers, some of whom do need a little... monitoring, shall we say? >_>


My computer at home is having issues. The graphics card is fried or something - it turns on okay but it doesn't display anything on either monitor my and my mother tried. I've contacted my brother about sorting it out but his response of 'No problem.' does not exactly fill me with confidence that it will be sorted out soon. I wish I could phone him and get it sorted out quickly but he doesn't have a phone at the moment.

Until it gets fixed, I won't be around online much. I've hiatus'd at Wake and I'll have to freeze my karma on Plurk for a few days because I will only have decent internet access at weekends from now on until my computer is fixed/replaced. (Hoping to get it replaced actually, though I'll have to rescue the hard drive - no way am I losing all my music. D:)

So... extremely limited internet access for a while on my end. I won't be around much - at work, when I can manage it though probably not tagging - and only on AIM at weekends. Kinda sucks but... on the plus side, I can get caught up on books and games. I read a huge chunk of Game of Thrones yesterday and rescued Squall from the D-District Prison in FF8. The Seph-muse enjoyed Rinoa kicking Irvine down the stairs too much, I think. I'll probably finish the book tonight, then I can move on to other things. I have a craving for Holly Black at the moment so I might re-read Tithe/Valiant/Ironside and then White Cat/RedGlove.

But before I can do any of that, I have to finish my work and go home... >>
Augh, I am so bored... ffff

I'm at work and supposedly busy but there isn't much to do. I'm updating the computer files and putting things away but still finding plenty of time to watch BtVS on SyFy. >> But really, I'm just waiting for Sanctuary to come on.

Also, I put my OC, Michael up on D_M yesterday. I am still alternating between /flailingOMGWHATAMIDOING and 'Hee~ this is fun' But I'm sure I'm annoying at least one person on there... but eh, they tagged me first and they're still tagging back so... :/

Also, I found this community octoberwriting and decided to sign up on a whim. It's a writing challenge kind of thing, writing short stories during October. I'm gonna give it a go, use it to write some stuff for any one of the prompts I've got and maybe for my OCs too, flesh them out a bit maybe if I'm going to be using them during NaNoWriMo this year. But I'm not sure if I will redo the idea from last year or write Michael's backstory.

I actually found his original bio thing the other day. I wanted to see if it was still up there and... it is. It is terrible and I am so so embarassed by it. fffff But he has grown and developed and is no longer just around for teh lulz and yaoi smexy tiems. >_> He has personality and aspirations and fears and flaws and stuff idek yet. XD

Anyway. Sanctuary is on. Back to work/watching TV~
Achieved my tag nirvana earlier~ That makes me so happy. I even tagged the month-old musebox threads that were still sitting in my inbox from Feburary and March. >>

I ...may still have forgotten some things but ...eh. Later.

I've also reset the passwords for most of my RP journals - all the ones I'd forgotten the passwords to. I'll spam join certain museboxes with them later.

I've deleted my muselist from before. I just realised yesterday or the day before that LJ fucked up all the links. My attempts t set it right just deleted all the comm links and turned all journal links to Seph's 'godamongmortals' journal. What the fuck, LJ.

So... I'll sort that out later.

Right now, I've been working on a character profile for my OC. I still need to edit the fic I wrote about him a couple days ago so I'm not posting that yet. Also need to pick a PB for his journal and then... I'm gonna app him. Somewhere. idk. Probably Wake.

Going to sleep now. Starting to get a headache.
By contrast to this time yesterday, this morning is FUCKING FANTASTIC OMG

Yesterday, when I was out, I decided to go get myself a new PSP memory card at last (although I had to take a detour when Billy showed up and sort of... steered me sideways while asking if I was single. :/ I told him no, said I was going shopping then to work and he went off - in the direction I was meant to be going. fffff). I tried to get PSN working on my PSP at home but it just kept downloading the same update over and over without ever installing it, even though I told it to. In the end I gave up and went to work. Actually got the update installed while I was at work, sneakily plugging the charger in in a corner while my aunt was out. But I still couldn't get on PSN.

And then o nthe way back to my BF's, I had a thought - I could use his PS3, couldn't I? Just download the stuff on there and then transfer it~

...Except the PS3 wasn't plugged in to the TV so I had to sort of fiddle around with that a lot before it would work. :/

But I got it working, added the credits to my account and downloaded Final Fantasy 7, 8 & 9! Took a while, and then I had to install them on the PS3 before it would let me copy them but it is finally all done, about 2 hours after I started.

At last!

And now my only dilemma is - which do I play first?!

lmao, leaving my PSP behind when I go to work is going to kill me. XD I can see my RP activity dropping even more now....
Haven't slept. Can't sleep.

Spent half an hour looking for the fucking Xbox controllers to play a game but could only find ones that don't work. All kinda of pissed off about that. I HATE WIRELESS CONTROLLERS AUGH WHY DID ANYONE THINK THEY WERE A GOOD IDEA ALL THAT EVER HAPPENS IS THE BATTERIES DIE AT THE MOST INOPPORTUNE MOMENT AND THEY GET LOST AAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Cannot get plurk to work properly. Managed to post a plurk but then when I was trying to add more responses about my morning so far, it stopped.

Now I'm all pissed off and want to break things.

Don't think I'll be on AIM later in this terrible mood unless something utterly fucking fantastic happens to me during the day.

And you know what?


Fucking hell. My day has never gone downhill so fast before.

Oooh~ Work-related drama!

Oooh, it's all dramatic at work lately~

I've been meaning to post about it but I keep putting it off. Still... after the things my aunt told me this morning, I just can't help myself~

So, a little background first: we're a distribution company. Earlier this year, we got a contract to deliver charity bags. It's an on-going thing all year round which means constant work for those that prove reliable.

But sicne the start, we had issues with people stealing the bags that are left out. We reported it to the police but we had too little to go on - a few residents saying they'd seen someone take the bags already and they drove a red car and that was all. Red cars are so common it was almost pointless.

Cut for a lengthy tale of thievery and justiceCollapse )


I am feeling an increasing need to just say 'FUCK EVERYTHING' and becime a total reculse for a while. No going out, no internet, nothing.

Just me, a pile of books to read and a notebook for when I feel like writing.

Oh, and a massive pile of chocolate too.

But I won't, because I have obligations to fulfil. Work to do, tags to write and other such things. I also have characters I want to app even though I don't know how I'll manage because I am failing so badly with just two at the moment. But I do have... drafts, at least, for the Sephiroth tags I owe, both in thewake_rp and piecesofworlds. I'm gonna type those out now properly, post them and then... maybe write some backstory for my OC, Michael or the other story set in the same world or watch Sanctuary or play Vampire the Masquerade.
I'm not sure why but today I just feel utterly miserable. And bored.

But I have a mountain of tags to do, a book to finish reading, games to play...

I seem to have lost my appetite too. It's about 6:30pm and I have not eaten a thing yet I just don't feel hungry at all. I just... don't feel anything.

Today sucks. ;;

Work is boring but the other girl who was helping has gone off on holiday or something so suddenly I have all her work to do again as well as my own.

Plus side - I will not be stuck doing only audits. Also longer hours which means more money.
Minus side - I still have to do audits and cannot foist them off on her.

Wanted to RP last night but my boyfriend would. not. stop. interuppting.

So I got a bit bitchy with him and immediately felt sorry about it. I just wanted to be left alone. I haven't had any real alone time in about six weeks and I'm starting to feel overcrowded. It doesn't matter that I'm currently at work alone or that my BF goes out because it isn't my space. It is his space and I'm just occupying it for a little while.

I cannot wait until Monday... I can finally go home.

But before that, I have to finish today's work, then tomorrow, plus a party tomorrow night and then the weekend after, which I have no plans for. Except to finish a story or chapter if I have not already. ^^;
So I'm feeling really 'blah' lately. I want to RP and work on fics and stuff but I just have no motivation for anythinglike that.

Part of it is that every time I really get going on something, my BF interrupts, begging to attention and stuff. But I think he leaned his lesson from tht earlier. He was tickling me, something I hate, and I tried to slide off the bed away from him. Except he decided to climb on top of me, came off the bed as well only I landed on him - his wrist, to be most specific. His already damaged wrist that hurts like hell. >_>

 I apologised but still... I feel bad about it now but he's playing Shogun 2 instead of teasing me now.

Jul. 18th, 2011

I just did the Mary Sue Litmus test on one of my OCs - the one I consider to be the biggest Gary-Stu.

He scored a 4.


That just... doesn't seem right to me. :/ He should have scored higher. Like... really high.

Reasoning some stuff outCollapse )

Jul. 17th, 2011

Have had two hours sleep. Words do not make sense to me. Would possibly try to smother my boyffriend but I do not think I have th energy to life a pillow.

Today is a pretty miserable day.

I need some more jeans so I went shopping, only to realise all the clothes I saw in town are... well... dull. Boring. Bland. Or they are hideous. :/ I did get jeans but only because I need them. I don't actually like what I've bought. I guess in time, when they've faded a bit, they'll be alright though.

I did get some new trainers though. They're alright. And some canvas shoes which, because they cover my ankles, my boyfriend does not like. Because he hates boots and I know he does and so I shouldn't have bought them. Even though I really like them. :/ What.

Also I have gone up a jean size and am not happy about it. I'm in the middle of telling my BF how I plan to cut down on junk food, eat more healthily and seek out an exercise routine I actually wouldn't mind doing and he interrupts with 'Just do some exercise like I keep telling you." except his 'telling' feels more like bullying at the moment.

I'm finding my own exercise routine though. I'm not doing anything he tells me to do because it will be something ridiculous that I can't handle. The last one, the Beach Body Insanity thing was just too much - and he never put it on DVD like he said he would so I can't do it at home. I'll seek out my own thing and manage to do that on my own. Fuck him.
My boyfriend's parents are back. All the problems I was having before are now with the washing machine and then the freezer breaking (don't remember if I mentioned that but yeah, that broke too and GUESS WHO WAS GETTING BLAME FOR THAT. B| Something about me not closing the door properly, which is bullshit). Life is back to more-or-less normal. Whoo~

Work is back to being dull - I'm stapling stuff together. Alison has been preparing to go out for almost an hour, I think, but people keep phoning and interuppting and then wondering why she's late in meeting them. >_>

I need to work on tags at some point too... If I can just have half of them ready to post by tonight, I'll come back to Wake.

Also I am looking at manga online and omfg it's  half the price I pay at the bookstore in town. *_* I must resist the urge to spend all my money on Bleach/Death Note/Ouran/etc. I MUST RESIST.

A Little Shameless Plugging

Once upon a time, several years ago I was part of a forum known as The Gamelands. But life intervened and I drifted apart from that place and my friends there.

But it is up and running again. It is still just a small community for now, but if anyone is interested, I would ask that you join.

That is all.
I learned this morning that my boyfriend's parents get back tomorrow. Wonderful.

No, really. It is. Partially. The bit where I have to clean most of the house on my own is less wonderful (I swear, I am the only one who knows how to do any housework anymore - and both my BF's brothers moved out and lived on their own for a while before moving back.) I've got towels to handwash, vacuuming the house and I need to scrub the bathroom. No doubt other things will present themselves as I work on the other stuff.

So I might be home on Thursday.

Or not.

I'll be at my BF's all next week anyway, plus the weekend so I might not bother going home, even though I want to. It'll be better next week anyway, ith his parents back. Get a sense of normality again.

Anyway~ I'm aiming to get back into RP by the end of the week. Arwen has enabled me into creating a journal for the Phantom of the Opera but I'm feeling really shaky about his voice at the moment still - so I'll be watching the movie every night this week to try to get it down. I'm already working on an app for him for thewake_rp . >> But I need practice before I send it in.

And I still intend to app Albel.

Short ramble and a fic~

Ah, the weekend~ A time of rest and relaxation and then back to work on Monday which should hopefully mean that things will start getting better.


Except I can't afford to get to work on Monday because I haven't been paid.

My paycheck is about two weeks past due now and I have no idea how much longer it is going to take or why it is taking so long in the first place. I hope my boyfriend has money to lend me else I'm kinda screwed. :/ I did bring work home with me last time but it won't last all week and I certainly can't get home again after his parents get back unless he gives me change.

But there is good news~ My new book, The Quintessential World of Darkness arrived this morning! I can't wait to get started on reading it but I'm still working my way through The Essential World of Darkness. I also need to finish reading The First King of Shannara at some point too.

And at some point, I will need to find the motivation to finish BBS only last time I played, there is a certain battle that is kicking my ass time and time again. >_>

Oh! And I wrote a short fic yesterday while watching Advent Children Complete~

Title: Flight
Fandom: Final Fantasy VII
Characters: Cloud
Rating: G
Genre: Genfic
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters.
Warnings: Short.
Summary: The open road is freedom but there's no place like home.

To the fic
So it seems I can wake up in a slightly good mood but it diminishes throughout the day no matter what I do.

I decided to stay home, do some work in the fiels I brought back with me but... Looking at it makes me feel worthless. Useless.

I want to write something but I have no idea what. I've no ideas, no muses begging for attention. Just a vague scene in my head - vampires in Midgar. And werewolves and other shape-shifters. Mages. Changelings. I've been spending too much time browsing the World of Darkness wiki.

I'm actually playing Dragon Age: Origins right now. I'm about to go off and rescue Anora. I'm not sure if I should try putting Alistair on the throne of have my City Elf rogue keep him for herself. Except when I created the character I already had a 'doomed romance' in mind so...

Next character will be male, I think. Possibly Dalish Elf warrior. I also need to play through human and dwarf origins. Or I might recreate my Elf mage. I do miss her... >> But if I recreate her, perhaps I'll go with a male mage. I also need to remance all romanceable characters at some point.

Ugh. but I just feel so crappy. I want to be able to get back into RPing but at the moment I'm just not feeling it.

The dog, howling and whining next door, is expresing just how I feel right now. ;;

...wish the owners would do something about it though. Ever since they brought him home, he's spent at least a couple hours a day outside, whining and howling - sometimes indoors too, I can hear him - and they brought him home a while ago.

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